Love UnExpected by Love Belvin

Author:Love Belvin [Belvin, Love]
Language: eng
Format: mobi
Tags: United States, Romance, African American, Women's Fiction, Literature & Fiction
Amazon: B00DPNS95M
Publisher: MKT Publishing
Published: 2013-06-28T04:00:00+00:00

Chapter 6

Rayna

It was a Tuesday evening and time for me to clock out of work. I couldn't help but to feel blue. While Azna is a fury ball of joy, his nuzzling wasn't enough to distract me from my pining of Azmir. I missed him and it had only been twenty-four hours. Normally, I'd be consumed with Michelle and Erin so it wouldn't be much of an issue.

It saddened me to realize that I couldn't even call to share my solitary feelings with Michelle. I suddenly realized that since our return from the East Coast, I'd been with Azmir nearly every day—and I couldn't but guess it had been by his design. Now that he had been half way across the world, I was lonely.

Oh, well. I'll get through this day-by-day. I always do.

When I got in the bed I was alerted of an email. It's Azmir!

Good evening. You should be in bed by now. Shit - you had better be in bed by now. I'm all too sorry that I'm not there with you. How's our pet child?

Holy shit! He referred to the dog as our pet child! We share something? My belly filled with butterflies. My goodness! Does this man really have this much of an effect on me?

As predicted I am in bed. A very lonely bed. A very cold, lonely bed. Azna is here relaxing with me but he's not 6 feet 4 inches of unadulterated pleasure. However, he's my only connection to you so I'll deal. What are you up to?

Good. I'm taking a bathroom break from a meeting. My body is still on PST. In other words: I gotta love jones. Missing you. Gotta go...

And with that, he was off.

The following day was easier but still dry. I had dance class that evening. I gave my number to Tamia's tune a test drive and everyone went wild. Jimmy was so elated that he announced that he was planning a showcase for our choreographed numbers in a couple of months. He said that he had planned on making the announcement in a few weeks or so but seeing how much work people were putting into them his excitement wouldn't allow him to hold onto it. I was immediately thrilled at the thought of Azmir being there to see me perform the song that we'd christened there in my makeshift dance room at my place. Then reality slapped me in the face that he was out of town and that it would be days before I see him.

As I reflected on A Purpose Driven Life I had a revelation. Why am I holding back on the one person who is asking me to love them? Why do I think that I have to mourn alone and be alone on everything? Would it be a foreign thought to believe that Azmir’s presence in my life is a gift? That his love is in my destiny? I wanted to shake this shell that towered around me, that I somehow convinced myself was for my protection.

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